I was in the office on October 1st when I received
an offline message from his dad.
How are you doing today? This is Rising's father and I will like to inform you right now I am in West Africa, Nigeria because I received a call that my son and his best friend Michael had a car accident on the way to your country and my son died instantly. Michael is still in the hospital. Hence, I will like to inform you that you have to go back to your husband so that he can take care of your baby because your baby needs a father. Right now, I have lost all that I have in this world and I do not know want to do. I cannot let my only son to just leave me like that. Michael told me that before Rising died, he said that you should go back to your husband so that he can take care of your baby and that he loves you very much. He is sorry he didn't get to buy your baby very nice things that he promised. My daughter, I am writing to you with tears in my eyes as I have been crying but I realized that no matter how long I cry, it cannot bring my son back. I will like you to be strong okay? You can mail me if you need anything. Bye for now."
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I felt numbed at that moment. Then, I burst out in tears. I didn’t care if my office mates saw me crying. I was shaking while I read his dad's message and I didn’t know where to go. I wanted to run to him, see him and talk to him. I wanted his dad to take back all what he had just said and tell me it’s all a lie. How can my love leave me just like that? How can God take back the gift that he just gave me? We haven’t even started to fulfill our plans and dreams together.
I felt like a very big part of me died that day. I never felt that alone. I never felt that cold. I cried day and night. I talked to his picture and asked his spirit to show up or even just appear in my dreams so we could talk. I couldn't move on. I love him so much. I didn't know why God has to take away that happiness he just gave me. Why did he have to take away that true love that just came?
I didn’t know if fate played a cruel trick on me. His dad updated me on what happened via email on September 29th but it was sent into my spam mail instead of inbox. His dad gave me an offline message because he said I did not respond.
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Since he died, I continued sending him messages everyday. I also sent him emails. It keeps my hopes up for a reply from him. It's like I'm holding on to a thread but I can't stop. I don't want to stop. I want him to know that I love him so much and nothing has changed. Up till now, I still didn’t understand why god took Rising away from me. Why did my love leave me and not keep his promise?
My life is not a fairy tale. Fairy tales are only found in story books. However, I knew that in the short span of four months, I have experienced a fairy tale; my very own fairy tale. Even if it's not a happily ever after, I know I have met my prince charming and he gave me a lot of happiness in my life. He gave me only what true love can give and it is the love Rising gave me.
By Jean Gray
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