First Love Story
Without Words Part 1

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‘Love involves things that are beyond our understanding; it sheds a brilliant light, but the shadows it casts can also be frightening.’

Time passes without a word. Everything happened so fast I didn’t know how to react. I was just living in a simple world when he came. Since then, I knew my life would never be the same.

I was a shy girl; he had no shame. Oftentimes I’m serious; He was a bully all the time. I hate everything about him. Every time I looked at his face, I couldn’t help but get angry. Who wouldn’t be? He never fails to play pranks on me everyday. I tried to hold on to my patience but sometimes, I lost grip of it.

He wrote a love letter, pretending that he was me and gave it to our classmate, Shane. I, who didn’t have an inkling of what he had done, was baffled when Shane confessed to me that he also loves me in front of the entire class. I didn’t say a word as I was still trying to understand what was going on. Shane took something out of his bag and begun to read it. It was a love letter… From me? I was shocked and embarrassed. The whole class was in chaos. The classroom was filled with cheers for us to kiss. Without uttering a word, I grabbed the letter from his hands; only to find out that it was Nate’s penmanship. I was incensed. Tears formed in my eyes. I looked at Nate who was laughing very hard and I turned and ran away from the classroom. I was so helpless. I didn’t attend classes for the whole day or rather I spent my time crying alone at the rooftop.

After that incident, I decided to ignore his presence and I actually succeeded. I didn’t give him the chance to apologize which he never actually did. However, things changed without warning. A few months after the love letter incident, I faced another crisis. I wanted to share my pain but I have no one to talk to.

I was standing at the rooftop. Every time I wanted to be alone, all I had to do was to go there and enjoy the peace that it brought. As the wind blew, I let the tears fell from my eyes. That was the first time I ever cried after my parents broke up. I lost control before I knew it as my emotions took over. I didn’t even notice that someone was watching me.

“Life does not always offer happiness. Sometimes we have to fall and get hurt.”
He paused then looked at me and said, “Sometimes, it’s easier to cry than to fake a smile.”
I looked at him. Our eyes met for a second, and then we both looked away. I couldn’t let him see how hurt I was. Not with Nate Evans.
“This is the second time I see you crying.” He said.
“The first time I saw you crying, I couldn’t do anything because I knew that it was my fault.”
“Just go…” I interrupted.
“It’s the best thing you can do.”
Unfortunately, he didn’t move.
Instead, he said, “I don’t know what your problem is and you don’t have to talk. Just imagine I’m not here. Cry for as long as you want. I’m not going to interrupt.”
He turned to look at me and continued.

“I’m not good at comforting people. I can’t even lend you a handkerchief because I don’t have one. All I have is this…”
He showed me his hands. I didn’t know what it meant so I simply stared at his hands. Before I could react, he was already wiping my tears away with his hands. It was beyond what I could ever imagine. I looked at him; gone was the naughty boy I knew. Then, I realized. I never actually knew him at all. That was the beginning of a new friendship. I began to see the other side of him I never thought he had. From then on, we started treating each other as best friends.

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