Emotional Stories
Still Waiting Part 1

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My life was never a fairy tale. I didn't have a very happy childhood. I didn’t have a very happy life. All my boyfriends left me after three months. I felt cursed. I am twenty years old and I don’t know if the problem lies with me or my family. All I know is that I have problems with them and I have given them so much pain.

I was very sad with my life and I wasn’t thinking properly. I met a guy who was introduced by a friend. After a week, I got pregnant with his baby. My sad life became sadder. My life became filled with darkness. I even asked God for the reason for keeping me alive. Why had he not taken my life away from me? I felt so worthless that I thought I would be better off dying than to experience more pain. The father of my baby doesn't love me and we got married because my parents forced him to do so. I tried very hard to gain his love for a year after marriage even though he has plenty of girls and he often shows them off to me right in my face.

One day, I couldn’t take it anymore. I told him not to come back as I didn't want him to stay with me again. He did just that. I went back to college and tried to finish my studies so that I can get a job to support my daughter. I love my baby so much and I want to give her all the love that I can even though I'm just a single parent. I was very glad when I graduated from college. Ever since then, I dedicate my life to my baby. That was two years and three months after I got separated from the baby’s father. Deep in my heart, I wish that one day, God will give me someone who will love me for who I am, accept me, my baby, my past and love me forever. I am always praying for that as I just want to be happy.

On May 16th 2009, I logged on to MySpace and kept myself online while I was cleaning my house. A guy named Rising sent me a message telling me that he wants to know me better and would like to get my number and email address so we could talk. I thought there was no harm and agreed. However, I did not take the guy seriously as his profile states that he is from London and he is handsome like a model. To sum it up, he is very gorgeous and I didn’t think he would be interested in me. I gave him my email address and we start chatting. He asked me if I could be his girlfriend. I thought he was trying to play games with me. I hesitated at first but decided to give it a try. I reminded myself to set boundaries and not to get too serious as he might just be toying with me. When we chatted the next day, he told me he was very happy when I agreed to be his girlfriend. The conditions are if I found out he’s just fooling around and toying with me, the relationship will end. He promised that he will be true to me.

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